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"Now Change has come over Her Body ..."

"...Changes, Changes, Changes, Changes ... Victim of Changes"

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  • Names I have gone by: Rook, Aster, Nihal, Alice, Wix, Ahava
  • Pronouns I like: Fae/faer, she/her, he/him, ne/nym/nir/nymself, hy/hymn
  • Currently Playing: Hades I & II, Mortal Sin, Borderlands 3, Cult of the Lamb, Esoteric Ebb

My Writing

I've written a lot of things, and I wanna share em here!

Essays

About "Transxenine" - a collection of thoughts on transxeninity
On-Purpose Allyship and De/Trans Liberation - an essay written for the July 2021 Gender Exploration Carnival on the theme of Activism and Community. I chose to talk about the activism and community-building I think should be done between trans and detrans people against transphobia and cissexism.
I am Not Human - an article I wrote for Alt+H going over different philosophical and social reasons I don't see myself as human. Aimed at an otherkin and nonhuman audience, so people outside it may lack some context.
How Disability Gave Me 4 Legs and Why it Kicks Ass - an older essay from when wei first discovered the joys of quadrupedal walking through assistive technology. There's a planned update essay now that we've advanced to crutches.
Why I Call Myself Transspecies - what it says on the tin, as written by a trans+ person
Therians and Otherkin Cultures Are Different and Here's Why - Originally titled "therians and ‘kin don’t have exactly the same experiences," I wanted to voice some feelings I had about therian culture and why it's still important to me not to lose in the assimilation into otherkin. It spawned two response articles here and here!


in defense of MOGAI label hoarding - just some thoughts on what hoarding labels did for me that was good and cool, and that I kinda miss now
"Proposed New Term" -- the original coining of Fableing what I would prefer people link to if they need a source for "fabeling."
On the Inherent Alterhumanity of Plurality - a discussion about how human-IDing plurans still experience alterhumanity
Are Otherkin Oppressed? - something I posted on Nonhuman National Park arguing that yes, we are.
Bigender Culture - a short recollection of some pieces of old bigender culture from forums in the late 2000s
The Reality of the FURRIES Act, Wolf (2021), and Therian Conversion Abuse - a video I recorded speaking about my experience with anti-queer and anti-therian conversion abuse, its parallels and representation in the movie Wolf (2021), and how my experiences made it clear to me that the Texas FURRIES Act was sadly inevitable in a regime like this. I plead with alterhumans to believe survivors of abuse and build resources and alliances now, before it's too late.
Peculiar Pucai: Evidence of a Shared Puca Reality - a talk I did at Othercon 2025 about how an unusual number of otherkin exist who identify ourselves as pucai and/or polymorphs, who have arrived at the same conclusion about what our forms look like, completely independant of each other. What's up with that?! Significant features include large, alien-like eyes on a face with few features, animal heads, all black or all white coloration, a lanky body, four arms, and a long tufted tail like a lion's. In the midst of my explaining this, a member of the audience joined in as she realized she also related to the description, demonstrating my point.
Poetry

There is so much of this that I needed to make a whole page just for the poetry. I used to write so, so much of it, and here's all that I could find in my old archives, along with newer stuff. I'm going to start adding new things soon.

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Websurfing Links

Here's links to places around the web and creators on it that I find really cool.

Alternative Tarot Course - created and hosted by the author of the Little Red Tarot blog, this self-guided 8-part course is really good for anyone else who hates tarot courses and feels like they're too ableist/sexist/racist/woo/not-woo/whatever else, and want something better.

Revealing Femmegimp: A Sex-positive Reflection on Sites of Shame as Sites of Resistance for People with Disabilities -- a reflection on femme and crip/gimp/disabled bodies through a sex-positive and very honest experience-based lens.

The Evolution of Femme -- A research proposal on the evolution of fem(me) identities throughout the 20th and 21st centuries, across genders, sexualities, and other intersections.

Fae/Faer's origins as a pronoun -- this is the post that introduced fae/faer pronouns to the world and explained their intention as fae-gendered and other-gendered pronouns.

The Reclaiming Collective -- website hub for information about the Reclaiming tradition of witchcraft, founded by Starhawk and continued by others across several continents.

Otherkin.net -- an old foundation of otherkin community, Otherkin.net was started in February 2001 to host essays, poetry, art, and information about and by otherkin. It was a gateway into the community for many.

Toward TransMad Epistomologies -- a working text on how to uplift marginalized voices in academia through a model of citation as care

Riot Medicine -- free manuals for practicing insurrectionary medicine

Four Theives Vineagar Collective, Harm Reduction for the Living -- The Four Thieves Vinegar Collective is an anarchist collective dedicated to enabling access to medicines and medical technologies to those who need them but don’t have them.

Art Gallery

WIP

Cool Games n Programs

Pagan: autogeny - "Adventures in a Dead MMO"

Exquisite Biome - a card game to help build fictional biomes and creatures!

By the World's Wind - a cute little open world to explore on the sea

The Electric Zine Maker (Bright colors warning!) - a neat little zine-making tool